Play war

skinned noses and broken teeth
pant knees torn ragged
watch 'em shuffle feet and mumble
small men play war
barking t.v. commands
a sandbox stands near empty
tonka-toy looms upward, half-unburied
summers pass with balmy vengeance
acned chins sprout wispy hairs
eyes turn from trucks to hips
secret thoughts of stolen sins
soft-core fantasies
behind hard-bound texts
young men at studying war
minds addled with heroic adventure
and so-thankful maidens
they charge to their blind fate
some die more quickly
others lie, torn shreds of themselves
rubbish by the wayside
of a monster going past
to return to their home lands
in flag-shrouded coffins
with ribbons for their trouble
they died a patriots' death
the bureaucrats grew fatter
and the sweet maidens
lonely

JDN'81

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Silent wonder

And here I sit and wonder
chin upon my palm
lost in silent wonder
my face is blankly calm
I know not where I've been
only that I've gone
A voice that softly beckons then-
in pursuit, I've withdrawn
to catch a passing notion
to chase a straying thought
to see with eyes turned inward
the visage I have wrought
It grabs and holds me planted
rooted dead-square in the street
the truck is speeding closer
but I've become concrete
It bears down on me quickly
I hear the engines' roar
and just as it has reached me
I step out of a door
onto a lamp-lit highway
in a stark and barren town
Alone I set on my way
past houses tumbled down
Through streets once bright and peopled
I make my puzzled way
until the speck at the tunnels end
has burst full into day
And again I find me sitting
palm planted on my chin
for my thoughts brought me unwitting
to the out of me again.

JDN'81

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Requiescat

I have mourned the loss of you

grieved as I would have your death

grieved the death of our union

the passing of what once we both held dear

The agony has cut me, brought me to my knees

wracked with pain and suffering so unbearable

my mind couldn't grasp a time

that it might pass

But quiet now is decending upon me

slowly, a calm acceptance

slowly, a laying to rest

of what was once

us

To the future I cast

a longing gaze

only time can move me ahead

For the now I wear

the black flag on my heart

and light a candle for you

in my soul

To mark the passing

to grieve the loss

to honor the time

we shared with each other

Requiescat in pax sanctorum

JDN ‘94

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Terminal (a short story)

The man in the grey plaid suit strolls across the terminal, turning purposefully down the long corridor towards the safety deposit boxes. The chain on the handle of his attaché swings pendulously, its slow motion ending with the cuff on his wrist. Glancing at his watch, he notes the time; 12:45 p.m. He nods to himself, satisfied. Right on schedule...

...Warning! Contains unstable elements suspended in...

As the last flight disappears into the night, Diego moves down the hall, glancing cautiously over his shoulder. The pack he carries across his shoulder sways slowly, straps slapping a small rhythm on its side. He knows what he must do, and filled with that feeling, he moves on, eyes following the passing numbers. He counts them off slowly to himself, warmed by the knowledge that it's not much farther now. Four-ninety-seven, four-ninety-nine, he looks about nervously; five-oh-five, five-oh-seven, all's clear up the hall; five-eleven, he stops, peers down the hall again. He digs into his pocket for the duped key...

...an oil based solution. Combination of these elements...

Slowing down as his box gets nearer, Ivan Walker digs into his jacket pocket with his free hand and produces a gold cigarette case. He releases a small catch with the side of his thumb and rolls a cigarette out onto his palm with practised ease. A flip of his thumb and the case snaps shut. His hand raises first to his lips, wedging the cigarette there. Case still held in his palm, he dips it back into his pocket, exchanging the case for an embossed gold lighter. This he raises to light his cigarette, then drops back into the pocket. Drawing in deeply he walks on, trailing thin blue smoke lines in the air behind. A small self-satisfied smile plays on his lips as he strolls, becoming thoughtful, then troubled. He stops in front of his box and digs once again into his pocket, this time producing an airport box key. The worn five-one-one on the side he checks against the number on the door. He inserts the key and turns it...

...and water will produce an immediate...

Carefully packing the plastic wad into the corner, Diego digs a shallow trench in the surface, then places a small capsule in it. One side of it contains a clear, shimmering liquid; the other, a small lump of some dark mineral in a yellowish fluid. Between the two, a small fragile wall. Directly above this, he places a metal weight dangling on the end of a string, which he runs first through a pivot placed in the ceiling, then out into his hand which he holds outside of the door. He closes it and carefully tests the string. Satisfied, he takes a razor blade and slices off the remaining line tight to the door. It's a good job, and nothing shows. With a self-satisfied smile he shakes out a cigarette and, dragging a match against his jeans, lights up. Smiling, he walks away...

...explosive reaction. Keep out of reach of children...

JDN ‘81

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Polly Vinyl


the girl with the plasticene face sits
staring
no wrinkles in her chemically preserved skin
shades of red
puffed, brushed, painted on
shades of blue
so no bags show through
man-made hair shade
eyebrows pestered, plucked, plastic
eyes blank, just sits
staring
can't tell if she's real
'neath her polyvinyl peel
maybe transistors and wires
control her inner fires and desires
maybe servos and D-cells
lay just below that man-made outer shell
can't tell

JDN 1981

 

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Time


Time plods ever onwards
trodding down plants and earth and man.
It slides by
in subtle sensuous swirls swallowing day
and night and hills and trees.
Deep beneath the crust of time
lie the secret sacred sciences of uncounted cultures.
Shrouded in its' deep shadows
are all that was and ever will be.
The key it holds
safely stored in seven separate sanctuaries
well hidden in walls
and weaving waysides
in spires of sleek shining silver
or benevolently bent Buddhas.
To ply that prized possession
is to uncover untold usheries
of nameless knowledge.

JDN 1982

 

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Clouds


A small dot at the end of a line
Stop.
Do you hear the water running?
cars trucks blur by
fast slow fast
the wind plays with the curtains
Do you hear me?
watch it turn slowly
Let's turn it up!
Do you see that?
-the sky?
No, the clouds
-yes I see them
Could you without the sky?

JDN 1982

 

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Refutation of construction


In refutation of construction,
the small grey-faced man
pushed the blue ginkum
on the slightly distended hweezle,
producing an ignobious kerpt
smelling slightly of roses.
As he pressed his tandem foculars
in reflex to the offalence
against the quite unfractive lendz,
a large gazeef stared in utter indicative of deference.
"How very quimsic" he glurbed
spyooting small gorfulus glops
in the gazeefs indigenous fricative
and imagining a small blue-green sworb
covered with festooning popitations
spinning on a twenty-three murker dinkle
careening through the mucky vistage
and engendering a hypervisory deific
culpable of consorbing
all of his careful
enflagellations

JDN 1982

 

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In a void


I think I was a god one time
or a spirit floating in a void in some other being
Because I can create
I have destroyed
I'm learning ways of seeing
I think I lost contact with me
as part of the upper fate
I must have fallen from grace
as I fell from my bull
my head still spinning from too much bhang
now my eyes are clearing
but I've lost face
O, Parvati don't frown at me
it's so hard to see...

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Stone


If a stone is just made of matter
and matter is made of wavelengths
and wavelengths are composed of light
and light of energy
Then am I not also matter?
also wavelengths?
light?
energy?
And if I am indeed these things
then am I not all things?
If I am all things
am I not any thing?
every thing?
If this is so
Why can't I walk though walls
or over angry waves
or ascend to the sky?
If everything is a wavelength
is everything an illusion?
What is reality?
Is there reality
or do we just dream of life
and live in our dreams?

JDN 1981

 

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